One of my bosses once told me this story. He told me of a time where someone, a person at work, had "crossed" him. He had actually written an email in response. It was one of those emails where he wrote immediately in response. Here is the good part. He didn't send the email. Rather, he kept it in draft form and went home. He thought about it. And after he had many hours of thinking upon returning to work, he decided not to send that email. I learned it paid off because although those words would have made him feel better at that moment, no good could have come from it in the long run.
I've taken three weeks of think time. Yes, a time where I needed to sit back and NOT do what I wanted to do. I had a personal experience with my physician that did not make me a happy person. A situation in which I do not feel like Dr. Feelgood was right. No, in fact, in every aspect I have given this thought, I'm sure Dr. F was wrong. However, rather than share my experience, I will keep it close to my heart. I will always remember that day. And more importantly, I will change doctors. In a near-about-breakdown moment, my doctor didn't have the time. It is sad. But rather than do what I really want, I will not write. Instead, I will take a Dramamine (R) and hit the hay ;-)
What an interesting night though?? Homework for a kindergartner year old is T-Total hell. But I grind my teeth and do it. It is not for me; it is for him. Kindergarten. I really feel like it may be the new ugly word. But even as my child squirms in his seat; he really does know the stuff...he'd just rather..........not. Today, after five years, 11 months, two weeks and four days, Thadeus is saying the Y sound! Hallelujah! No more, "es, ellow, and ucky"....hot damn! Tonight as he smiled he said, Yes, Yellow and Yucky! I'm so dang excited! He was excited too. Most kids don't have problems with Y sound but many do and Thadeus conquered. Other great mile stones since starting kindergarten. Writing his name Thadeus; succeeding at the letter "e" which is a tough letter no doubt; learning his "14903 enter" as his keypad lunch number; and getting five smiley faces TODAY! Yeah! Wow, did you remember entering a five digit number as a kindergartner?? Kids are fast learners though. Even though Thadeus has a harder time focusing and harder time making the effort to care in some school projects (probably more so than most kids), he is my sweetie pie. I love him very much. And I cannot believe he will be SIX next month!
Max:
This potty training is gonna kill me. He has it down- most of the time. Poo is another statement. That is hit and miss; no pun intended. Really. Tonight's menu? Dribbly poo that landed in five clumps as he exited Thadeus' room, walked into the play room and stopped. Yes, he just stopped. He waited there. As I exited the bathroom (where Thadeus was taking his clean and bubblicious bath) I found my three year old toddler standing in front of my fish tank in a frozen state--frozen because he had guilt written all over his face. Yeah, I guess he had the runs....but I think he could have "run" to the bathroom in time for this one. Maybe not...but that left me crouched on my knees cleaning up each clump, scrubbing each clump; wiping poo off his legs and tile floor all behind him. It is times like these when I think...count Christine and just be thankful that he is a healthy little boy.
Concern: I'm beginning to wonder if he is just playing a silly game or if he really does not know his colors at age THREE. But, at times I've wondered if he is slightly color blind?? Time will tell....I think tonight I have proven he is not color blind...but I cannot say I'm sure. The what-color-is-this-crayon test didn't really work. Five colors. He got them right have the time. The other day I had two sippy cups. One was yellow and the other blue. I said, are these the same color or different? He said the same! huh. Red and green get mixed up too. But I researched it. Red/Green is a common color deficiency in men and hereditary but not Yellow/Blue colorblindness! That is a rare deficiency...so I'm definitely practicing all of these colors more to see if I can make heads or tails of this issue. He just doesn't know his colors--Thadeus did at this age. However, I should know by now that not all kids are equal. Practice makes perfect and if not, then we go to an eye doc!
